The smell of bread perks my senses
I struggle against the warmth of comfort
Wrapped in blanketed protection
Dreaming of food and family
Around a table, laughing together
Ignoring the nightmare outside
I get dressed and check outside
The warm sun deluding my senses
Into thinking it would be OK to be together
Why should we throw out our comfort?
The Bible says love of God, of family
Provides everything we need, even protection
What are we really protecting?
Is the fear from inside or outside?
We shouldn’t be afraid of our family
Yet I feel that niggle, like Spidey senses
No amount of food can bring comfort
If we get sick from being together
Is the risk worth it to be together?
Should we stay away for protection?
If one gets sick or dies, will memories of this time be enough to bring comfort?
My worries spill from my body to outside
I do not want to kill my family
Because this is what it’s about – family
The primal need to be together
The smell, the sight, the sounds of food and laughter filing my senes
My role should be as protector
Not a bystander looking in from outside
Aloofness won’t bring comfort
But sickness and death also won’t bring comfort
I do not want to lose anyone in my family
So I invite them to come in from outside
If this is the last time we are all together
I will build a wall around my heart as protection
As we take leave of our senses
There is no comfort in being left outside
My senses overload upon seeing my family
Breaking bread together crumbles the wall of protection
Hello! It’s been a while and I’m jumping right back in with a submission for Patrick’s Pic and a Word Weekly Challenge #253 – Bread, #254 – Nightmares and #255 – Warmth. Back on track to continue my streak! My original idea for these prompts were to write about a carb-free diet and how awful that sounds to me right now being that we are in the middle of Christmas baking, however, as with all things at this moment when positive COVID-19 cases have almost reached 15 million in the USA, not eating warm bread doesn’t seem like that much of a nightmare.
I am also tried out the sestina form for the first time. It seems to work well for the merry-go-round of worry I seem to be riding since having family over for Thanksgiving. Yes, we had a gathering of over 10 people. No, we didn’t wear masks. Yes, my family quarantined before we had my family over due to my dad being immune compromised (we only left the house for work and food) AND we are quarantining until the end of this week just to make sure we don’t have anything from this gathering. While I know most people would not be this strict in following the CDC guidelines, we are trying to do our part in preventing the spread of this novel coronavirus.
But that’s the thing – we are doing our part but I see other people are not. Until there is enforcement of the safety guidelines, I fear this pandemic will continue to rage unabated. Sure, there is talk of a vaccine coming out in the spring of 2021, but how many more people will get the coronavirus until then? How many more people will die?
I’ve read about countries where they have been able to stop the spread of the coronavirus in certain areas and where they haven’t had any new cases in over a month (I’m looking at you Melbourn, Australia – shoutout to Kate and Ivor!) Will Americans ever be able to let go of their “right to individuality” in order to do something for the good of society? At this moment in time, the answer for most Americans seem to be a resounding no.
Maybe come January 20, 2021 things will change. My hope is that it does. Then I can go back to obsessing about sourdough bread bowls filled with clam chowder.
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