On this day, fourteen years ago, the God of War thrust his sword into my abdomen and stole the apples of my eyes. Like his namesake planet, I was left cold, and barren with crusted blood like iron red rust covering my once life filled belly.
On this day, fourteen years ago, I declared, “Let there be storms!” and created a maelstrom of wind and tears, anger and confusion, sadness and frustration. The storms ate the comforting, yellow sun, the brave, blue skies, the protective purple rains and the just-for-fun rainbows. The storms raged and the war commenced.
Waiting out the storm
I eat Istakhar Apples
Spring’s peace is hard-won

While this is not a traditional haibun, it does incorporate the prompt from Frank at dVerse to use Mars in a haibun. I was also able to include Anmol’s dVerse poetics request time write a poem that included apples and it’s mythologies. The links to the “apple stories” I have used are included in the actual poem.
Lastly, I was able to use Beth’s Tuesday Writing Prompt at the Go Dog Go Cafe. Her prompt was the phrase, “Let there be storms”. The god of war, the red planet, apples and storms – mix together with a dash of angst and pinch of nature and voila! Haibun!
March 4 is the birthday of my twins, Lucas and Larissa, who were born at 22 weeks and didn’t survive. We have always celebrated their birthday with a cake. This haibun captures a bit of the anger and sadness that comes with losing children, as well, the bittersweet aftermath of living with the reality of this grief.
©️ 2020 iido
You did a masterful job. This actually made me cry.
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Oh! I’m glad my words touched you in such a profound way. I cried writing it. ❤️❤️
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Very difficult to read, Irma. Wish there was something other than so sorry for your loss to say.
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Thank you so much for your sympathy. Your visit and comment are a balm to my soul.
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<3<3<3
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I am sorry for your loss. Beautiful remembrance of them.
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Thank so much, Frank. I appreciate your visit and comment.
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It was a beautiful amalgamation of the forces of loss. Grief, sadness and anger are so intertwined in the face of such a huge experience.. it resonated with me.
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Thank you so much for your kind and insightful comment. I’m glad my words resonated with you.
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Hugs 💖
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❤️💐
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Oh my goodness, your haibun hit me like a truck! I am so sorry for your loss. Fourteen years is nothing when you are only just walking out of a storm.
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Yes, the storm can rage for many years. Thank you for your sympathy and visit!
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Lovely and Bless you, Irma – Spring’s peace is hard won. Real truth and dignity here. The unseasonal mix of apples and Spring is perfect and illuminating…
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Thank you so much for this insight! Yes, I did chose spring (instead of autumn) to further highlight the discord.
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so sorry for your loss, great way to keep their memory alive!
This is so well written and will resonate with many … 😦
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Thank you, Kate. My writing helps me keep their memory alive. ❤️
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that’s important, and that you kids know they had other siblings ❤
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They do which makes my soul happy!
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yes it needs the context and continuity 🙂
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I find it wonderful!
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Thank you, Vandana! I’m glad you think so!
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Sad yet beautiful words. I hope you find peace soon.
Anna
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Thank you for your kind words, Anna. The pain has lessened over the years so remembering them is a bittersweet peace. 🥀
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Touching words.
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Thank you. I’m glad it resonated with you.
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Very nicely done!
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Thank you for saying so!
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Strong and skillfully done piece.
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Thank you for your visit and comment.
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I am so deeply sorry for your loss 😦 this is evocatively written.
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Thank you for your sympathy and your kind words. 🥀
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How devastating it must be… having to lose them both so soon… all that has been missed
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Thank you, Björn. Losing them was the most devastating event of my life. The pain has lessened over the years but yes, I still miss them.
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This is the best way to keep their memories alive, Irma. I remember so well the first time I read about your loss. Tears flowed freely then and now too, reminding me of my loss. The beauty is not dimmed by the sadness. Hugs, my dear friend.
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Yes, the sadness makes the beauty mean so much more. Thank you for your kindred words. Hugs to you as well, dear Punam. ❤️❤️
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Irma, your words are always precious for me. 🤗❤️
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❤️
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A heartrending, beautiful rememberance, with evocative allusions to Mars. I’m sorry for your loss.
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Thank you for your comment and sympathies, Frank. ❤️
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Thank you for sharing this with us. And my sympathies for such a tragic loss.
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Thank you for your sympathies and for visiting. Writing has been most helpful in my process.
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It is. I know
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❤
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